My daughter told me a couple of weeks that I should start writing again.
I’ve thought about it and attempted a couple of times. The truth is much of what I’ve written in the past few months has been full of swearing. I don’t know about you but my swearing levels have gone up during lockdown.
I don’t need to explain, do I? But let me skim the surface of the cause of this swearing increase.
Quarantine all over the world. Weeks of prohibition of seeing your friends and family. Husband working from the bedroom. Teaching my 4 year old social distancing, and then watching as his social skills diminish and he starts discussing my bowel habits with acquaintances we bump into in the street. Oh and my own personal favourite (NOT): accidentally appearing butt naked on one of my husband’s zoom calls with a business associate. That one took me a (long) while to get over. Change after change after change, which (for me at least) brings worry after worry after worry, followed by trying to resist worry and control the controllable.
There’s so much to think about and so much to write about. Also there is quite a lot to do. There are kids at home, activities to plan, meals to make, eat and clear, screen time to limit, toilets to clean, floors to mop, transitions to prepare for, scavenger hunts, friend hunts, bear hunts… Hell….a hunt for normality, which has, thus far, only been very slightly successful.
It’s been stressful to say the least. Of course there are good things, there are things I can control, there has been improvement. There are friends around, and there are coping strategies.
And look at that, I’ve just written six paragraphs without a swear word in sight (unless you count hell, but I won’t). So I think I will take the kid’s advice and start writing the blog again. I’ll try to be honest, write about real things, perhaps share some of what’s been helping me during this difficult time, and maybe even share some of the creative writing I’ve been doing (without too much swearing I promise). As ever, please feel free to post a comment. I’d love to hear from you.